Dont know why I decided to post this but i didnt finish oh well…
I bounce up and down on the balls of my feet, preparing in my head what I am about to do. I stand at the corner of the square carpeted section of the floor. I take a deep breath as I stretch my arms above my head. I put my hands up in the air and position my fingers to look as if I was holding a crown, getting into position to start. Then before starting I take a deep breath and without thinking I begin. I take a step forward, into a launch position, and put my right arm out in front of me and my left arm out to my side. From here I leap up and start to run across the blue carpeted gymnasium floor.
My pony tail sways side to side as I run across the bouncy flooring. I run until I am about halfway across before launching forward into a front handspring, which is a handstand into a bridge and then back up in a fast motion. After landing my front handspring I do a single back flip and land it perfectly. I smile to myself since I kept messing up my back flips last week. I then go back into my beginning formation with my right hand in front of me and my left arm out to my side. I do two bounces to gain power and kick my feet into the air into a split position. After landing I jump up and change the position once again. Once I finish landing the third jump, I do a handstand landing into a split. With my hands to my side I lift myself up so my feet are not touching the ground and roll into a summersault. I jump up and do two back flips and then go to the opposite corner from where I began. I run from my starting launch position and do a double back handspring, a fast bridge into an upright position, into a full layout. I finally perfected my layout at the beginning of this past summer. I smile as I completed my routine and walk back over to the corner where I first started.
I get into formation and replay the beat in my head that I move along to just as I did before. After landing my front handspring I hear a door slam shut. I look at the heavy metal doors where the entrance to the gym is. I see no one there and figure its just the janitor cleaning down the hall and the other rooms. I continue with my first back flip when I hear another loud crash while doing my jumps. The harsh sound catches me off guard and I mess up my landing, resulting in falling on my butt.
I look at the doorway again and this time I see a person watching me through the open door, with their arms crossed in front of their chest. I get a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach but I push back my fear.
“Wh-who are you?” I ask with a hint of fear in my voice. The stranger starts walking towards me and gives me his hand to grab.
“Aaron Parker.” I grab onto his hand and he pulls me up, “Sorry for scaring you.”
“You did not scare me. You just distracted me and made me mess up.” I say bitterly.
“That’s not what I saw on your face.” He changes his face to look exactly like mine a few seconds ago, lips parted and eyes widen. He then laughs and I crack a smile but quickly get serious.
“What are you doing here anyways?” I raise my eyebrow and fold my arms across my chest and stare at him. His brown hair was slightly over his left eye and was past his ears, which bugged me.
“Why are you trying to get rid of me so badly?” He stares back with a half smirk upon his lips, ignoring my question.
“Why are you not answering my question?” I counter.
“To see hot girls workout in leotards, duh.” He jokes like it’s obvious. I take a look around to make a point that I am the only girl in here.
“Well it is only me, sorry to disappoint you.”
“I wasn’t disappointed.” He smirks then looks me up and down. I blush and readjust my arms across my chest, uncomfortable.
“Well you can leave now. You can get in trouble for being here past 8 p.m. and you can get me in trouble for letting you stay this long.” I tell him and check the clock on the white wall to see how late it is. It is almost 9 and my extra hour of practice will soon be up and my coach will be back to lock up. If she sees him in here I can get in serious trouble. I also am wasting my routine time for a guy and that is unacceptable.
“I think I’ll stay.” I sigh and walk back over to the corner of the floor to start over before my time is up.
Before I start I say to him, “You frustrate me.” He doesn’t answer because he is too busy watching me do my routine in awe. I land right next to him with a smirk.
“And you are really good.”
I mess up on my double back flips and get mad at myself. I tell him thanks with no emotion as I concentrate on landing my back flips correctly. I land them the second time and then continue my routine in silence. I can see Aaron has moved over to the side watching me in awe. I mentally smile to myself, feeling accomplished. I have worked hard to get this far and I wouldn’t change it for the world.
I bow like I just finished a play as a joke and Aaron claps. I smile brightly and walk over to where he is on the side. I step off the blue floor area and onto the thin grey spotted carpet that lined the gym and floor areas. I start walking towards the trampoline. He follows.
“So do you ever plan on leaving?”
“What is the hurry?” He shoots back.
“I don’t want to get in trouble and risk losing my personal time in the gym. Alright?” I admit and walk up onto the bouncy rubber material.
“Well I don’t think you have to worry about that.” He tells me certainly and I just look at him as I bounce up and down in the middle of the trampoline.
I give him a puzzled look and am about to say something back when I am interrupted by the same noise that scared me before. The gym doors. I look over and see my aunt waving at me with a giant smile. I am expecting her to notice Aaron standing there and to march right over and start yelling at me but instead she walks over with her smile and starts talking to Aaron.
“How do you like our star athletic? Talented isn’t she?” My aunt boosts. I jump down onto the floor waiting for her to acknowledge me.
“Yeah she is amazing.” He looks at me and I just look at them both in confusion.
I figure I will be in trouble after she gets rid of the spy so I decide to explain my case now.
“Aunt Liz, I don’t know how he got in here but I am really sor-” I was caught off by a wave of my aunt’s hand.
“No need to apologize. I let him in.” She looks at him, “You didn’t tell her?” I give her a look that explains I have no idea what she is talking about.
“Oh yeah it must’ve slipped my mind after I was being yelled at to leave.” Aaron laughs and I look down at the floor feeling guilty for being so rude. I hear my aunt laugh and explain how protected I am over this gym and then Aaron comments that he can tell and he likes that about me. I feel my cheeks flush.
“So what is going on?” I ask once their comments about me end.
“I am your new training partner.” I finally get an answer from Aaron. My mouth drops in astonishment.
“You have got to be kidding me.” I say in disbelief. Me of all people should not be needing a trainer and I certainly don’t need to waste my time helping him. He probably doesn’t even know what a summersault is.
“Do you know anything about gymnastics?” I scuff.
“A little.” He jumps onto the trampoline and starts to bounce up until he gets to a decent height. Once he is comfortable he does a lousy front flip. He lands it and throws his hands in the air. “Ta-da!”
I cover my mouth with my hand to stop myself from screaming. This is going to be torturous.
“How long am I training him?” I look over at my aunt for an answer. Then before she could answer I am distracted by Aaron. He gains both of our attention when I see him do a round off back handspring into a back flip.
“Your not. Like I he said before, you are partners now.” She says coolly as she claps for Aaron. She walks over to him with a smile and I am left with my mouth hanging open once again. How can this be? How long will I have to suffer through this? Why don’t I have a say in this decision? I don’t want anything to do with him.
Aaron and my aunt continue to talk about how he will have to manage his time in the gym while I walk back towards the gym doors. I push through one of the heavy metal doors and walk over to red locker in the hallway. Aaron and my aunt walk by and I overhear her tell him to stop by early tomorrow morning to pick up a schedule for the following week. I assume that is when we will begin. I take a few sips of my water bottle and then watch Aaron walk off towards the exit as Aunt Liz follows him out with her set of keys. I grab my duffle bag and sandals and check to make sure I have everything. I check my phone for any messages as I walk towards the main entrance where my aunt is waiting for me. As I approach the exit I choose to not speak to her. I keep my head down as I push past her and walk out. How can she just make such a big decision like that without giving me a say or discussing it with me first? I was mad and I had a right to be. All I could see is my future being at risk.
Ireply to a text from one of my best friends. I have known her forever and without her I think I wouldn’t survive this world. She helps me relax most of the time.
God is moving in my life. Its been awesome. I talked with a good friend tonight. He is always there to talk with me and its always needed. I love having my close friends that I can trust with anything :) I had another recent conversation the other night on the phone till about 3 in the morning and even though it was a late conversation I know God was present for both of us and it answered a lot of questions for me but it also unraveled a few more… but ill never be without questions. It made me see stuff deeper and I think it helped our friendship grow. I hope to have more conversations like that I love them so much. It motivates me not to give up and helps me clear all doubts :) God is moving everywhere and sometimes we don’t see it cause we have our eyes closed or we don’t feel like looking around. But its happening all around. Maybe you will realize it later like I did with a past friend but all that matters is I realized it and its all thanks to God. :)
I slam my locker shut and hurry down the hallway past all the students rushing to their next class before they are late. I hurry out the heavy double doors and into the frigid air. The wind tousling my brown curls back and forth. But I didn’t mind it. I wanted out of there. That horrible place… I never want to go back. All I will see is you… And her… Everyday until I graduate. I want to puke.
The peace and quietness surrounds me. The cold air envelops me and I shiver. I take a seat on the steps outside the double doors and look up at the neighboring houses and dying trees. I skipped class. The thoughts in my head were too much for me too handle. How can you do this to me so fast? It’s been only one month we have been apart and I thought you said you loved me. Now I know why you didn’t try to fight to win me back. You never cared. I stand up and walk down the cracked sidewalk. I head down the street to the small park on the corner. I sit down on the green swing and rock back and forth. I think about what I just saw. Tears well up in my eyes and I keep my head down so no one would notice I am not in school. I feel the tears escape my eyes. I wipe them and realize how wet my face has gotten. The images of the kiss won’t erase from my brain.
I always knew I wasn’t pretty enough or smart enough or talented enough but I never thought I would deserve this from you. How can someone be so hurtful? We were together 9 months and you act like it was nothing. Like I meant nothing…
What is better about her anyways?
Her. I can’t believe her. I trusted her. My own best friend. I grew up with her and never knew her as a backstabber. Why wouldn’t she at least talk to me about this? Why is the world out to get me?
I am lost in my own world of hurt.
Back To Then: (HIM) I once thought we were perfect together. I realize now it was a good thing. Maybe the hurt and pain only made my stronger. Now I can walk down the hall and be alright. But its just alright. I can face you both but I can’t hold a smile. It was a tough few months back at school. The holidays were horrible without you but I am okay now.
(HER) You were my best friend and I know friends make mistakes too. Even though you claim you love him still it is alright. I will get through it. You will realize he is not the love of your life and I will be there to support you. But maybe it will work out and hopefully I will get to see you walk down the aisle one day. Right now there is tension but I hope after awhile you wont be scared to work things out with me. I am better now, approachable, so I hope you come back soon.
(HIM) I was mean. And I am sorry. I wasn’t the best but I didn’t think I deserved any of this. People make mistakes though. We were not perfect together and I see how much better my life is without you. Less distractions. I am making this a good thing and I’m okay with goodbye forever. Even though you were my first love I forgive you.
And I don’t know why…
Now: You guys made a huge mistake. You both will never be happy. You have another life to take care of now. You are being forced into marriage. You aren’t happy now and you won’t be happy later. You are too young. I feel bad. I feel like I could’ve done something but deep down I know I had no part in this.
(HIM) You left me and I would never have given into you and let you ruin your life. Maybe a child is a good thing for you. Make you grow up. I feel bad for the child to have you as a father. You don’t know how to treat someone. I can’t believe I was ever with you. You just manipulate people.
She fell for your tricks. She made a mistake. You let her fall. You didn’t catch her when she needed you but instead you abused her. You pressured her and she didn’t say no. It was her fault and yours. Don’t think otherwise.
You tricked her. My best friend. You hurt her just like you hurt me. Only you got her pregnant and then left. One day you will look for her and your child and realize how stupid of a person you are now. Hopefully that day is soon because she needs you and I cant stand to help her raise the child of your baby. It kills me inside. All I have in my life now is PAIN.
this amazing feeling of happiness is defiantly something i havent felt in a lonnnnggg time probably since i was a kid when i couldnt be knocked down. now i have my life in check and hopefully God will just strenghten me and that it all stays with god in control.